I had a hall donated to me for my event on the 10th but when they read the agreement that the St. Baldricks Foundation supplied, they decided that my event was something that they just didn't want to host.
??????
Of course, that is a perfect opportunity for my self doubts to try to take hold.
And try they did..... I spent the next half a day with this type of negativity looping through my brain:
Well, there you go - I knew this wasn't going to work from the beginning...... you never should have started this whole thing...... you are going to have severe egg on your face ...... who do you think you are, trying to put together something like this?....... Now what are you going to do - hot shot?....... no one is going to help you now...... Why did you think you could put together an event in three weeks time?...... even though we live in an instantaneous world of the internet, most people don't live that way - so three weeks is an impossible amount of time....... and what about all those comments you are getting from people as they look at you with a look that speaks volumes "ARE YOU CRAZY? WHY WOULD YOU SHAVE YOUR HEAD?...... am I crazy? ........ UGH!!!! (and back to the beginning ---- Well, there you go - I knew this wasn't going to work from the beginning......)
And JUST when I was having the BEST time in my personal pity party for one, I got the following email:
The biggest mistake you can make is to do nothing because you can only do a little.
Today, act on your impulses. Don’t second-guess yourself.
Today, act on your impulses. Don’t second-guess yourself.
Wow......
Just what I needed to hear.
Due to some TREMENDOUSLY wonderful people who believe not only in me but in this cause, I have already raised $260. That is WAY more than I had at the beginning. And if that is the extent of my fundraising - it will be more than worth it.
Because I believe in this. And every little bit helps in the big picture.
So, I have changed that negative loop to a more positive one and I am rallying.
I have once again found my "it is what it is" mantra and I am determined to find a spot that will be as receptive to me as I am grateful for them.
Which brings me to the quote I picked for my wall today and says it all ===>
Your only obligation in life is to be true to yourself. ~Richard Bach
LOVE IT!!!!
It is what it is....hallelujah. It will all work out. :-)
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